| Never Again |
[Jun. 25th, 2007|07:16 pm] |
Grandma's Birthday is coming up next monday...
It makes me sad =( |
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| Clearwater March 2007 |
[Apr. 1st, 2007|09:37 pm] |
So this weekend I got off work early and made my way to Clearwater. I had a blast and can’t wait to go back in a few days. I took several photos of my adventures while I had some down time. Lets begin…
I left Jacksonville around 3:30pm. This allowed me to get down there much earlier than I normally do. The only real bad part about my drive down there was getting stuck in traffic in Orlando for over an hour. I was going crazy. Once I got past the traffic it was clear sailing all the way to Clearwater. The most wonderful thing happened while I was driving over the Howard Franklin Bridge. I saw a sunset over the ocean for the first time in 10 years. The last time I saw a sunset over the water I was living in Hawaii. It was so beautiful.
I wish the photos would have shown more color, but it was on a camera phone and I was traveling at high speeds. The entire sky was pink, orange, yellow, and blue. I was in heaven.
Once I got over the bridge I had to find my motel. It was a cute little place.
Now most of you know I'm spoiled when it comes to hotels. I was a little nervous at first, but it was rather charming. Also it was in the perfect spot for my reasons for my trip in the first place.
When I checked in they gave me a key to my room, a real key! Not a piece of plastic you have to slide. Then I realized that the door was already unlocked and I really didn’t need a key anyways. I thought it was kind of funny. They also asked me if I wanted to pay extra to turn the phone on in my room, strange I though but declined. Then they gave me the remote to my TV… Again, strange, but whatever.
After I unpacked I just hung around for a little while and tried to meet up with a friend. I eventually got to see them and it was so wonderful. My entire trip was all worth it just for those 45 minutes. It was amazing. I can’t wait to see them again. I then realized that I needed to set my alarm and put up a do not disturb sign for the morning. The first thing that I noticed was that there was no do not disturb sign, so I had to make my own. I had brought a pack of Muffins with me and had to tear apart the box to make my sign since I didn’t have any paper in the room. Then I realized I didn’t have any tape to hang it so I had to get creative.
Then I realized that there was no clock in that room, thank goodness I had my phone.
The next day I woke up early since I had plans with a friend during the day. Due to events out of our control we didn’t get to hang out. This is where my dilemma came in. I had no idea what I was going to do down there. I decided to find the beach, and I'm so glad I did. It was soooo beautiful and so close.
The burly birds!!!!
My favorite photo taken from the beach…
Me just hanging out…
After the beach I went to the Pool and talked to Cassie on the Phone for over 4 hours lol… I would have been so bored if she hadn’t kept me company hehehe.
Around 9 I went to a bar to get something to eat. Luckily I knew of a place where they have live music every Friday and Saturday night. So went… but I ended up going alone. It was so weird because I had never gone out to eat by myself before. It was very lonely, but I guess everyone has to do it at some point. The music was great, but I wasn’t in the mood for blues, especially feeling a little sad. But it was still very nice.
I left the bar around 11 and then went to bed after finishing a bottle of red wine. I had to get up early to get ready for work on Sunday. I ended up leaving town around 11 and made it to work by 3. If I hadn’t timed things the way I had, I would have been late for work… damn Orlando traffic again!
But fear not, Next week is VNV Nation and I will be going back to Tampa. I called up the Motel again and already have my room booked. In fact I think I will be getting the same room hahaha.
So yeah, hope you enjoyed my pictures.
Love you all. |
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| Well, well, well.. |
[Feb. 25th, 2007|05:36 pm] |
I made it back safe from tampa.
Got alot accomplished...
Had my interview
Searched for apartments
Found new places around the city
Decided i cant wait to move down there.
Saw some friends
The water was so beautiful, the breeze was wonderful, and the sky was so blue. Made me think of Hawaii to an extent.
I am glad to be home though. I missed my kitty and i missed my things. Hotels are only so nice. Just waiting for the day i get to move my things down there =) |
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| 20 minutes of bliss |
[Feb. 21st, 2007|09:47 pm] |
Well tonight i just spent the last 20 minutes talking with the one i adore...
We talked about me possibly moving down south.
Future trips that i plan on making.
How much we missed each other.
How yes... he actually listens to me... because he thinks im interesting =)
About my trip to the crack house last night with my friend ( we had to get her stuff out asap )
Making sure that i was feeling better.
And many other things...
Best 20 minutes ive had in 2 weeks!
Kendall is a happy girl. |
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| getting there |
[Feb. 17th, 2007|08:42 pm] |
Well today i awoke to a wonderful message from the one person i like to start my day off with...
we exchanged messages for the next few hours non stop!
Made for a very happy Kendall.
I'm getting so excited about next weekend! I get to see him, some other friends, and hopefully start getting familiar with the area. =D
I have my hotel booked for the 23rd thru the 25th of this month. and the 6th thru the 8th of april for VNV.
Now i just have to make sure i can afford it all hehehe. Good thing i got my bonus a week ago.
Well thats all for me!
~K~ |
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| Torn once again |
[Feb. 14th, 2007|11:12 pm] |
| [ | mood |
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Well lets see. where do i even begin. i have fallen for a guy. a very nice guy. but i am starting to have my doubts. he lives in tampa and i live here. normally we talk everyday. i would hear from him first thing in the morning. and our conversation would go on through the day. the last week or so i have not been getting any messges from him . no communication. nothing. he sent me a message say the was sorry and that work was crazy busy. i can understand that. but im starting to wonder if the fact that we cant see each other every day... or even every other day if i am starting to lose him. i got a few messages from him today wishing me a happy valentines day, it totally made my day since ive been sick in bed all day with a fever of 103. but i am starting to wonder if i have given my heart only for it to be broke again. i told him i am going to see him in 2 weeks, and he didnt seem as excited as he normally does. maybe he was in a bad mood or i dont know what. maybe im just paranoid. i will just have to see how things go on my next visit. wish me luck! |
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| its been awhile |
[Feb. 10th, 2007|09:38 pm] |
well im sorry to everyone that i havent updated in a while... my life has been pretty busy recently.
work is good...busy... but good
relationship wise... i am head over heals for a certain someone... sadly he doesnt live in jax.
and as for everything else... well its just going.
ill try to send more love on here again...missing you all!
~Kendall |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 20th, 2006|09:27 pm] |
Zack came to see me tonight. I love him.
the end. |
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| Halloween |
[Nov. 1st, 2006|02:38 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | on my comfy couch | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sore | ] |
| [ | music |
| | resident evil video game | ] |
So Halloween was a lot of fun.
The night started out as a wonderful time. I met Rachel and Black at their house to get ready for picture time at the Cummer. Alec, John, Kat, Brandi were also there. We all made the short drive to the museum dressed in our Halloween best. After about 30 minutes, Black took Rachel outside into the Atrium and proposed to her. It was so beautiful!
Then we all went back to their house to have a party! Shortly after i ended up getting a fever. 102 was after a few aspirin. I went home and crashed before midnight. I felt bad that i had to leave the party, but i knew everyone would understand.
Woke up today feeling a little better. Got up a noon instead of 3-5pm daily. I dont have to return to work until Nov 6th. I will take advantage of my sleeping in time. =)
Other than that nothing much is happening in my world. I have found a guy that interests me, but im not sure if
a. it is a good idea since we work together
b. if he would just be a better friend.
c. if he even likes me back (i think he does tho)
Well i hope to see everyone soon! |
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| So whats been going on! |
[Oct. 20th, 2006|11:21 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | bored | ] |
| [ | music |
| | This is Neo Goth | ] |
It seems like forever since i was last on here.
Ive gone back to work, and seem to be doing okay. I have a work party tomorrow... so im gona get dressed up for that. Ill end up at Eclipse a little later in the evening. Romell is doing my hair too... looking forward to having one hair color again.
Yesterday was ine month since my grandmother passed away. It was hard.
Other than that not too much happening. Just busy enough to keep myself occupied. |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 27th, 2006|06:11 pm] |
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I just had the best two days Ive had in a long time. My Cousin Denis from Ohio came down a few days ago. Tuesday night we went out and played some pool. Then we went up to Fuel Coffee house and had some drinks. It was the first time Ive ever gotten to just hang out with him and really get to know who he has become. It was unbelievable. After many drinks we ended up staying up til 4am and making ham and cheese sandwiches just talking non stop. Great night.
Then Last night we started drinking early. Played about 4 different beer drinking games and just got totally drunk. It was the first time Ive been really drunk in awhile. Cassie came over to play with us too. So after we had gone thru over a case or two of beer, we all went swimming and got in the hot tub. Very relaxing. Finally around 3:30am we went inside. Cassie crashed, and me and my cousin made more ham and cheese sandwiches and stayed up past 4am just talking some more. It was just nice to have someone like him to talk to. I love my cousin so much, I just dont ever get to see him.
He told me I better get up there to see him soon... so I guess im going on a road trip sometime soon =)
Its about time I had two wonderful days in a row! |
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| Family and Friends Gathering |
[Sep. 25th, 2006|02:47 pm] |
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We are having a gathering on Tuesday (tomorrow) for Grandma. It wil be at my mothers house from 12pm to 7pm... maybe longer. We are going to celebrate her life, the way she would have wanted. Dress wll be beach/pool/bbq atire...If you would like to attend, please call my cell for directions. (349-3419) Hope to see you there... |
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| Which end is up |
[Sep. 25th, 2006|02:38 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | depressed | ] |
Today i feel strange. Im not exactly sure why, but something keeps pulling at my heart. Im sure alot of it has to do with grandma being gone, and that wont change.
But last night did something to me.
Me and Matt and Star have all made amends. After so many deaths, i think that we all came to the conclusion that life is too short to be messing around over stupid shit.
We all went to Fuel and saw the Sick of it All show. Then after wards we hung out with the band and partied with them til after 3am. Very nice guys. They wont ever forget me either. My fear of spoons came up, and they just loved that to no end. They said i might even get a song about it (dont worry, im not holding my breath) lol.
I also got to see Scott for the first time in awhile. It was very weird. And i think that is what might be bothering me. He and his Ex- girfriend, they have a kid together. No problem there, but after all that ive heard him say about how much he hates her, and then watch her all over him last night, i think it hurt a little. Now i know that we werent dating or anything, but it still sucks. I dont know what going on with him and his x/current gf right now. They say they arent dating... but who knows... o well... story closed.
At least he told Matt that he considers me to be one of his best friends. =) i think that will last alot longer.
Im also getting my hair done today. Romell is coming in on his day off... just for me... i love ya! thanks so much.
that is all for now...
<3
K |
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| Heaven couldnt wait any longer |
[Sep. 21st, 2006|03:28 pm] |
Today at 1:21 pm, my grandmother passed away. She let a single tear fall down her check, and with it she took her last breath.
I love her more than words can say.... and she knows that.
I would like to share with you all her favorite song, and a song that has helped us all through these hard times....
~I Have a Dream~
I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream
I have a dream, a fantasy
To help me through reality
And my destination makes it worth the while
Pushing through the darkness still another mile
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream
I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream |
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| Grandma, I love you. |
[Sep. 20th, 2006|12:29 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | with grandma | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  blank | ] |
| [ | music |
| | classic 80's rick | ] |
Well yesterday threw me for a loop. around 6pm i was a work when all of a sudden my mom pulled me outa the office and took me home. She said grandma was not dead yet, but was very very close. We rushed home and i sat by her bed, crying...more then i ever have in my life. I curled up in bed with her just listening to her heart beat. Evenutally i tore myself away and gathered myself. I had also called a few friends to let them know that this was the time to stop by, if they wanted to. My best friend Cassie came over around 730pm. I called Matt and Star, they were close with grandma, but here it is, 1230 the next day, after they said they would come over. And they havent even called. O well there are bigger issues at hand.
We were all hoping that she would pass away last night, instead she slipped into a coma. All she can do is lie there. She doesnt eat, talk or move. The said that she saw my Great Uncle Johnny who had passed away a few months before. So we know that she is in the presence of angels. We even got then on film. Its the most amazing sight i have ever seen. Sitting in an all dark room with no light. And to see two large angel wings sitting to her right. It still takes my breath away.
Right now we are all just taking turns sitting with her. holding her hands. Waiting for her to make her journey to heaven.
Thank you to Mom, Aunt Cathy, my sister Nicole, my cousin Danielle, My uncle Mark, Joan, Cecila, Kerick, Julie, My Great Aunt Nena, My second cousin Mimi, my moms boyfriend Steve, and My best friend Cassie. Even if grandma doesnt remember seeing any of us, we know that we are in her heart for ever. |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 19th, 2006|12:23 pm] |
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grandma is not expected to make it to Friday... |
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| When will it be over? |
[Sep. 17th, 2006|05:24 pm] |
Today I found out that my grandma has internal bleeding. The doctos said that she could pass away any day now. We were going to do a blood transfusion to help her, but she doesnt want it. It would only be a temporary fix anyways. Those that know me, know that I am not religious in any way... but please pray for my grandma. Keep her in your thoughts.
Also my friends lost their good friend last night as well, so please pray for them and their lost friend.
And finally, Scott and his daughter are still in the hospital, they should get to go home soon, so keep good thoughts and prayers for them as well.
Im tired of so much death and pain. Please just someone make it all go away. Im tired. Im hurt. And so many wonderful people are going through a hard time right now.
I love you all and hope that nothing but good things come your way. I love my grandmother more than I can even begin to explain. Please pray for her.
Thank you to everyone
Kendall |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 13th, 2006|10:22 pm] |
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grandma is in more pain then i can stand. it makes me so sad to think of her lying in bed slowly dying. i called her today to tell her i love her. i will get to see her tomorrow. but everyday may be her last. friday night my moms house was visited by death. we saw it fly out of grandmas room followed by little white lights. ill go into to this more in depth later. i just hope soon she will be better. and happy |
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| Death is among us |
[Sep. 12th, 2006|02:34 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  busy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Nothing... =( | ] |
When i have more time...hopefully tonight i am going to give an interesting update on my grandmother...
Also i want to tell everyone about a show that is coming up Nov 4th at Fuel. Some good bands are going to be playing up there that everyone must go see!!!!!
Its called the After Death Ball... there will be celebrity appearances, costume contest (dress up like your favorite dead person) and lots of cheap beer! So you better go! Well i have to get back to work. Hope to update more later tonight.
Love and miss you all
Kendall |
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